A Mother’s Day Confession about my Girlfriend
Here’s the story, I hope this answers all questions.
She went through a few changes before leaving me, it was a sad parting, but realistically, I didn’t have any more room in my life for her, I was growing up, and so was she. From time to time I miss her. The goodbye was a long one, happening over the course of a few years. She stuck around after I proposed to Annie, she still lingered after we were married. But she left, and it’s all for the better.
The final blow happened one afternoon in November of 2009. I watched Annie’s face twist in a grimace of agony as the contractions grew in intensity. I watched her bearing down. After twenty some-odd hours, and some pain killers, the sweat actually looked milky as it seeped up out of her pores. I remember the funky sweet scent of her unwashed hair plastered to her throat and face. I remember watching her close her eyes, slowing her breathing, ushering, possibly forcing, the calm back in.
She was changing, right in front of me, she was becoming a force of nature.
I was awestruck and intimidated. I was still calm, despite feeling tiny and insignificant, it really just seemed as if I was there to provide futile bits of assistance wherever I could.
Then our daughter was born. I held her, our eyes locked, she seemed oddly calm considering what she had just been through. I brought her to Annie, and saw our baby’s instant reaction to the sound of her voice. I watched Annie reach out and stroke our little one’s cheek. I not only witnessed the birth of a daughter, but the birth of a mother as well.
I looked over my shoulder, and standing there clutching her little tiny purse in all of her high-heeled glory was that cute sassy girlfriend I proposed to so long ago. She smiled, sweet and sad. She kissed her fingertips, waved to me and began stepping backward, eyes locked on me, fading away into nothing. I returned the smile before I turned back to the mother that girlfriend had become. “We have a daughter Hun!”
People tend to think miracles have to be rare to be special. I think they are all wrong. Love is a miracle, new life is a miracle, motherhood is a miracle, mothers are miracles.
So my girlfriend is a part of my past, she became something much greater, and much more beautiful.
She is never more beautiful than when I watch her with our girls.
Happy Mother’s Day to that girlfriend…my Wife, Mother to our daughters, Annie.